simple yet complicated

a new plc..

heyy!!

i dont really feel this way.. but this i have to accept i love a place called home... i have bin staying in a place called hostel...no... himdari house.. yes thats my new plc.. even since i have moved to iit delhi.. himadri house has been my new plc.. well.. its been 3 months and god! its been an experience...colg.. hostel.. new ppl.. it has made a difference.. i wont say that i have changed.. but yea.. somehw somewhr.. it has made a difference.. but i like this plc.. u no, ppl keep on cribbing abt the plc, the food and all.. guess wat? im ok wid the food.. and i dont really miss home.. cuz my home is jus 20 mins away frm campus.. so wenever i want to .i can meet my folks.. so yea.. i took up mechanical engineering and lets see whr this takes me... i haven't really made up my mind what i really want to do in life.. i dont no much abt mechanical engg.. but yea.. i think im gonna like it.. i wont say i love this subject cuz i dont no much abt it but yea.. its one of those things.. which have got me interested in... and yea.. after knowing a li'l bit of it.. i think i'll survive...
well.. after coming to this plc.. got to know quite some ppl.. As most of u ppl must be knowing hw iit is supposed to be devoid of girls.. there r hardly any girls here.. so its kinda difficult.. well.. in my batch there r 81 girls.. and hello.. thats quite a big no.. as compared to the previous batches... yes.. my friends.. this is the scene here.. generally.. "girls dont go for engineering"... thats wat i have been hearing.. :P anyways... this plc isnt all that bad...well.. there's a lot to say actually.. so here.. i start...

wel, in the first month.. since this is a girls hostel.. ragging is almost not thr.. jus some intros and some other things .. wel.. then i got used to it... anyways its nothing in front of wat the boys hostel ppl do.. anyways.. now i like the whole hostel life..its actually nice.. i've got amazing roomies.. apoorva and shruti.. u can come back to hostel at any hour of the day or night.. no restrictions.. oh btw.. earlier v wre not supposed to talk to guys.. heheh.. yeah thats wat r seniors had told us to do.. it dint matter actually.. i guess those must have jus thot that im so full of myself.. like i care... and yea... its actaully true.. u'll find all sorts of ppl.. gud and not so gud.. and not at all gud.. i remember hw in the 1st month.. i used to jus walk without caring wats happening around me.. not looking anywhr around.. heheh.. and sometimes i used to jus hear.. oye.. woh dekh.. fachi ja rahi hai...lol.. yea.. fachi=female fresher.. wel.. v got used to it wid time.. and now its perfectly ok.. now, v r somewat familiar wid the iit system..

so many things have happened actually.. rendezvous .. which is iit delhi's fest.. which was seriously rocking wid so many events, and podium and stuff.. then v had 2 minors in which i did horribly.. screwed up both...oh but i did study ok.. umm.. only the last few days.. but oiii.. i was pretty serious abt AML110.. mechanics.. this is a deadly course actually.. so after the 2nd minors i kept on slogging.. i used to study aml110 every other week.. still.. i dont no if i improved... anyways.. i'll continue slogging.. i hope it will matter some day.. then thr were so many events.. and i had been going for them.. like some edlc events.. and yea.. i even went for tattoo making .. heheh.. oh and i even went for the rendezvous auditions for street play..and i was abt to do it.. but cuz of my screwed up acads... i dint participate.. anyways.. it was a lot of fun.. seriously.. nevermind.. im taking part in the hostel wala thing.. lets see wat happens.. and yeah.. thr r a lot of events taking plc here.. so u'r actually busy throughout the year.. something or the other is happening.. whoever manages time here wins.. oh and before the minors v had been going to a plc called reading room whr u study... but i go thr and sleep.. lol.. no.. ye starting me hota tha.. but later i used to actually study.. its absolutely impossible to study in the hostel.. so minors se pehle..v used to study till 3 or 4 or 5.. once i remember.. while returning frm the reading room at 5 30... some prof looking ppl were actually going for their morning walk!! lol.. and yea..going to nescafe at nite...now its pretty normal.. but earlier going to nesci at nite was like oh my god.. anyways.. and then v had our lots of freshers.. it was all such a waste.. seriously... in the mechanical engg freshers.. they gave us a presentation on the various societies they have like robotics and fsae and stuff!! yes.. that was our freshers.. oh and did i mention i they gav us a mc d's ka burger!!lol.. .haan and then v had informals.. which was alright.. kinda fun i wud say.. like guys have socials in their hostels whr they call a girls colg.. in girls hostels .. v call guys frm iit.. individually.. and v have a theme.. ours was guns and roses.. girls in red and guys in black.. oh i got a red dress... yaaaayyyyiieee!!! .. oh god!! there's so much to tell actually.. and yea.. the hostel rivalry is actually a big thing here... ppl r crazy abt thr hostel.. seriously.. some hostels practise for months for events!! oh and the whole iit lingo.. im actually using quite a few of them... there's a long list of them..

oh and i forgot to mention.. hw in quite a few of my classes.. im the only girl thr.. and seriously.. it gets kind of boring wen u dont have ppl to talk to and giggle.. starting me toh i ws quite bored.. wen v wre not supposed to talk to guys.. and imagine.. thr wre no girls in my class.. so i was not supposed to talk to anyone...lol.. now its still ok.. i think wid time.. i'll know ppl and talk.. so its okay.. oh and some teachers here r actually pretty gud.. quite talented and all.. but some teachers .. ahem.... why r they thr???

ok.. i think i'll go.. i want to watch a movie.. seriously... seems like i havnt blogged for ages!!! and this is a pretty long post... anyways.. HAPPY DIWALI!!!

i have a lot more to tel...
ok bye

posted by kasturi @ 9:05 am 1 Comments

NONSENSE

hmmm.. im actually going to write quite some stuff which is not going to make any sense to you maybe but it does matter to me.. so here it goes............

it's raining n im loving it! n i jus feel like sitting by the window n jus feel the cool breeze and the cool water on my face n i wud have loved to see it rain.. but actually its 9 30 p.m.. so cant see it clearly but i can obviously see it rain.. n wish it rains all night , it's getting a bit humid which is the sad part but anyways it's raining !!! that's all so overall wonderful weather... n after a tiresome day it feels great!! but i had fun hanging out wid some frenz of mine.. having domino's pizza altho i was a li'l unwell n then playing monopoly.. i love that game, used to play that game so much when i was a kid wid my dad n bro. anyways it was cool playing it again! it was a really hot day.. so v cudnt go to the market or anything so v jus decided to stay indoors and play monopoly..

most of my exams r over but some of the imp ones are left like dce n bits.. so i still need to study.. i heard the board results are coming out on 22nd of this month that is like this coming thursday! i jus pray i get decent enuff marks...

oh n it's lightening.. so it means more rain... yaayyy.. yaayyyy.. yayyyiieeee.. i like it when it rains ... NO , i jus love it when it rains.. awesum mausum... when it rains in summer , i actually get quite mad.. cuz it's such a relief.. mangoes n watermelons r the best thing abt summers!! otherwise i jus dont like summers... yea, you do get a good break in summers.. but it's too hot here... moreover, im at home now.. but after a few months maybe after a month or 2 i'll be in a hostel.. so no AC.. dont even want to thing abt it... you know, there's this line in gone with the wind in which scarlett says whenever she's in tension " i'll think about it tomorrow".. the way she puts everything for tomorrow... wish i cud jus do that.. but gotta face problems not runaway from them.. am i blabbering too much or wat?

tomorrow is another day n i have to remind myself that i gotta study "properly".. but tonight let it rain!! n not the stupid drizzling.. the proper wala rain.. dont ask me what this proper wala rain is! anyways.. i realise i have been riting crap n whoever reading this must have got bored for sure!!

posted by kasturi @ 8:59 am 1 Comments

exams.. tension ya masti?

hi
i dunno why i dont blog.. well.. these days i hardly do the net.. earlier i was addicted to the net. i used to come online atleast thrice a day. its not that im studying 12 hours a day. hehe.. well i must.. but anyways... my board exams are almost over.. i've got computers on the 31st of march.. and after that the EXAMS begin.. yup the entrances.. well i was actually quite scared and nervous about these exams.. but now im jus relaxed ..again i dunno why.. last night when i was doing permutations and combinations, i was like.. huh? how can i clear these entrances... i mean to say, earlier as in, class 11th, i was still able to solve these problems.. now it seems like i hardly remember any of it.. well.. i have been doing a bit of class 11th syllabus. now im ok.. cuz i know i'll not be able to complete everything.. but still, its always better to prepare something.. i haven't lost hope.. again i dunno why? hehe... i kno.. im not talking sense today.. but is it necessary that i talk sense? hmm.. i have got atleast 10 entrance exams.... so ... u can imagine..

anyways.. i guess, this is the time when i managed to read to books, gone with the wind and angels and demons.. both of them are rocking.. but im in love with gone with the wind... wellll........... hmmmmmm.... im just so impressed with this book.. and rhett butler is simply AWESOME!! yup... i mean hw can such a character be in his 40s after hw they have mentioned him in the book.. if u haven't read then go read it.. it's worth it... i used to sleep by 11 in the past few months especially when my exams were quite near.. and then i started with this book.. at first ,i got bored.. i was like wat the hell? who talks like that... but later i was jus so fascinated..i wanted to be a part of those times.. umm.. jus imagine.. life wud have been so relaxed.. without any kind of tension... with barbeques and dances and what not! well.. im talking about the time before wars... anyways... its quite an interesting book.. and scarlett! what a character!! lol.. kya dimag paya hai..
hmm..i can jus go on n on about it.. and angels and demons... quite a book... i actually liked it... somehow i jus couldn't believe any of it.. what if its true??? but it was jus brilliant.
oh then i saw 3 movies in 1 day- Race, jodha akbar and tarein zameen par... race was nice.. i loved it... saif was like wow! and the movie was quite rocking... amazing music.. ppl say its confusing.. but c'mon.. it kept us watching. nice plot. i liked it.... so i dont care if ppl dint..
jodha akbar was ok.. nice.. tarein (spelling?)zameen par was superb... touching.. i could actually relate myself.. coz half the time i was lost when i was a kid.. i guess.. its everyone's right to be dreaming.. i jus love to dream.. and i love observing nature.. ok now some ppl mite feel i have lost it... like i care?
oh have i mentioned before that in jan i watched jab we met almost every other day on my laptop.. yup..i loved the movie...its adorable..

so exam time is not that bad if i've got good books to read and maybe a few movies here and there.. n now i can do any no. of questions of algebra or anything! even permutations and combinations... or binomial....

ok bye..
hum honge kamyab..
hum honge kamyab..
hum honge kamyab ek din....
best of luck everyone!

- kasturi

posted by kasturi @ 2:01 am 4 Comments

hello! still blogging

it's cold.. my fingers are numb..
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i almost forgot that i have a blog which noone reads...
so here i am.. rite now im listening to bryan adams...18 till i die...
hey that reminds me that i am actually 18 now :) yes my friends.. im 18.. i turned 18 last month.. 21st december... oh btw.. my friends came over to my place on my b'day and surprised me.. they are such angels.. love them so much.. not coz they gave me a surprise party but they hav been wid me throughout.. listening to my idiotic stuff.. trusting me.. helping me, understanding me.. talking to me whenever im low.. and my parents.. seriously love these ppl like anything! they mean the world to me... im not jus saying it but i really mean it... most probably i'll be going to hostel after 12th gets over.. im really gonna miss my mum and dad.. i'll be homesick for sure... school's over except the exams..no more classes.. will miss all my friends.. classmates.. the campus.. everything about it...

preboards are over.. and the results will be out day after tomorrow.. i dont want to see them anyways.. especially chem which was the worst of all... it was a blackout... the fiitjee test series are going on these days.. i'll be giving the test on 27th and i have my farewell on 28th... oh i'll be in a saree... ahem!! i got the saree yesterday which is ok.. nice.. oh and guess wat .. selecting a saree didn't take me much time surprisingly coz most of the females i kno took days selecting one.. i mean i dint had to worry so much coz my mom's got some really nice sarees. but anyways i wanted to get something for me.. so went shopping with my dad, liked one saree, bought it ...had gol gappes in south ex too.. :) oh im hungry...... really.. wanna hav top ramen curry.. i really love top ramen curry... umm.. kretika, do u wanna comment on that? ;) "maggi and ramen" hehhe...

so i haven't got much time you see, for the boards and then the entrance exams.. blah blah...blah! now im listening to tumse hi of jab we met.. god!this movie is jus so cute.. and shahid is jus so adorable.. i mean he's looking hot in that black kurta in the nagaada song and he's looking cute in so many scenes like when he smiles.. i dunno hw many ppl liked it hw many didn't but i jus dont care.. i found him cute in this movie.. well i can jus go on and on about it.. ask apoorva...lol

well.im going...will rite some other time...

posted by kasturi @ 4:19 am 0 Comments

at 12

its 12 at nite and i dont want to study rite now.. i dont even want to complete any of my lab files rite now. and im not even sleepy(shocking na?) .. so jus thot of riting something..

• my room jus got painted (a couple of days back) so it smells of paint(isnt it obvious?).
• i had my phase test day before yesterday which was ok ok.. but not good..
• i have my half yearlies next to next week and this time im "planning to study properly" for school exams.
• i had chocolate fantasy and chocolate chip icecream recently and i jus cant forget their taste.
• im trying to solve irodov(this is the book for physics). but i hardly open it!
• i want to travel. seriously i really want to go somewhere.. jus waiting for all the exams to get over.
• hi5 is boring and so is orkut and facebook..dont go much on facebook.
• im not addicted to the net anymore.... i think.
• im still addicted to my phone.. im already missing it.. i dont have it rite now.
• its september 19th.. another 3 months and i'll be 18!:D... and wel, jus 3 months in school.
• shit... only 3 months in school?????????????
• i loved chakde india.. chautala was so cool..and india even won the asia cup..
• india v/s pakistan (t20)match was AMaZing..
• im still not sleepy!!!!!!!!!
• should i solve irodov or complete my prac file or start preparing for the halfyearlies or should i start with integration~~~~~~confused~~~~~~~~~~
• a few days back.. this kid was at the door.. he was from an orphanage and he was asking for money.. and even my mother wasnt at home. i jus had 25 rupees.. and guess wat? he was happy even to get those 25 rupees.. i was wondering hw many such 25 rupees i actually waste!!.. which can be actually quite useful.. and then he asked for food.. i gave him this packet of biscuits.. again happy! i really felt good that day.i hope he utilised them well.. he said he's in class 5 and he's also learning to make things like baskets,etc there.. life must be truly difficult for an orphan..
• i must seriously go and sleep. tomorrow i hav school.. and there's chem lab class as well so cant miss it.and i have to go by bus tom..
• oh this is imp:somehw shahrukh khan is looking a li'l weird in his new movie.. a li'l artificial i mean..

chocolate fantasy of ccd is truly, amazingly yummm....

ok im outta here..

bye

posted by kasturi @ 11:34 am 0 Comments

anger. dispair. regret. confusion.helpless.handicapped. sad. stupidity.sorry.

its the small things which matter a lot

posted by kasturi @ 6:16 am 0 Comments

this is me..

posted by kasturi @ 4:17 am 2 Comments

in a dilemma

im confused....
seriously.. there are so many things going around in my mind.. dunno wat to do..
the big question is WHY?
why does this happen and why does that happen.. i no im talking rubbish..
anyways..nothing new.. sometimes i really wonder why cant everything be nice and simple and clear..there's an entire different world out there which we have to face.. and the truth is the sooner v learn to handle it the better.. i hav got a problem with all those chalu ppl and all those dishonest ones.. sach mein.. i hate chalu ppl.. and i hate it when they hurt someone.. its not that i never lie.. but i dont want to hurt anyone.. i'll start hating myself if i hurt someone someday.. some ppl telme .. i shudnt b too nice to everyone .. i mean they do care for me but the world is full of mean ppl who jus try to use you.. its true sometimes.. but cmon.. i still dont understand how do u differentiate who's good from inside and who's not! maybe this is a challenge.. a test.. understanding a human being is the toughest thing on earth.. i still havnt been able to understand myself.. wat should i do? i mean.. im studying to get into a good college.. to be successful.. but i do want to do something good for the ppl so that it helps someone.. its not that i want to be famous for helping or charity.. but something vich will help the ppl,the country.. maybe i should join civil service.. but then i get mean and self centred and think of a happy life for myself in vich i earn, eat, sleep and have fun.. ofcourse i want to see my parents happy and they want me to have a good life and so do my frenz.. but yea, they say... u can join the services and have a good life.. but my thoughts keep on changing.. sometimes i feel very strongly for the ppl when i see poverty, discrimination, hunger and other such things.. i feel like doing something and not just sit there and watch wats happening.. maybe i can help.. a small contribution.. with this thought i start studying .. even if i dontjoin the services , if i become an engineer or anything.. i 'll try to help... i hope this feeling never dies... coz as we grow older, v become more selfish and we keep on thinking wats best for us.. about our future.. u no, its important to make ur life but.. isnt it also important to help those who are in need and to serve humanity... im not saying jus for the heck of it.. these things keep cropping up in my mind.. trust me i really dunno wat i reallly want to do!!! and i guess only i can help myself... i'll think more about it.. after all its time to use my brains...

hmm.. i was reading some of my earlier posts which i rote long back.. and i was thinking.. all i talked about was about myself.. my life's like any other 17 yr old girl who goes to skool.. has dreams, and wants to work to fulfill her dreams and loves to dream.. i totally love day dreaming.. yes, i do..

a very happy independence to all of you.. i no its very late.. but better late than never.. 15th august.. a very important day for indians.. our independence day! 60 years of independence.. isnt it amazing hw our leaders got independence for our country or jus imagine.. v wud have been under the british.. seriously.. life without independence is so worthless..

oh.. and im in the hindi editorial board of my school.. hindi, our national language is somehow losing its importance.. again WHY!! why are v becoming like the ppl in the west.. y are v aping the west.. but hindi is still used by millions in our country and its one amazing language.. mast hai ekdum.

since this is one really important year for me.. its a do or die kind of thing.. so i need to work much harder..so already i hav stopped wasting my time in many timepass type things .. like the tv... wel.. there's nothing on the tv.. coz my parents refused to take tata sky coz they think i'll not study and tv is one major timepass... and guess wat? my phone is not really with me.. as in.. its in another room so i dont really talk to ppl.. i used to talk for hours!! i cant stop talking... i love talking.. i dunno hw i survived being away from the phone and the tv.. and i come online for sometime.. not much as i used to.. and yea.. i dont roam about much these days.. so i have become a good bacha :).. bohut padhna hai yaaar!!! there are only a few months left....oh shit, i have 2 tests this week.. i have to complete packages, supplementaries.. electrostatics, aldehydes ketones, lcd.... mar gaye!

ok.. enough of my bak bak
so bye..
peace!

posted by kasturi @ 2:54 am 2 Comments