Wednesday, June 22, 2005

my "plans" n other stuff

hey peeps..only 12 days r left 4 d xams and i hav loads 2 study..i hav done a li'l bit of the course..but i m left wid plenty.. n watever i study i jus keep on 4geting..i cant keep things in my head 4 too long!i hav an hopeless memory...well..i also hav 2 do d sst project..i hav started it..but i need 2 do a lot in that.. i hav no clue wen v hav 2 submit it but..i gess sometime in july ..n u no wat..i also hav 2 do sum h.w. vich i actually planned 2 do.. well.. i had planned so many things..n wen i m about 2 do it therez hardly netime left!n hey did i tel u that i also had 2 study 4 ntse coz i m having a tuff time out there.. well..i gess the list of my "plans" r endless n i cudnt evn follow it ..that's d sad part..so lets cut it out..

i saw parineeta day b4 yesterday..wel..i dint actually c it coz i slept during d movie..but it's supposed 2 b nice..another art or rather romantic movie.. wel.. art movies r not always boring..sumtimes they r rilly gud..infact they r awesum..for eg.. black..it's soo amazingly done.but some romantic movies ..cant take them at ol..they make no sense..n tok abt da most dumbest things like i can't liv widout u n ol that..oh gawd!they r so unrealistic..ppl need 2 b practical!ok fine..emotions r nice but till a certain extent but beyond that don no wat it iz..ookay..now sum ppl r gonna kill me 4 toking like that.. but hey thats the way i think .. i want 2 go out sumwhere..i m rilly bored at home.. though there r loads of things 2 do but i don feel like doing them... i m jus waiting 4 skools 2 reopen but not 4 d xams..i hate long breaks.. now..i'll b going..i'll catch up wid sum sleep.. these days i don feel like sleeping much but earlier..i used 2 feel sleepy ol d time..really!okie then..byee..n take care

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Scared...

hi there...oh my god!last night wz so scary..i cudnt sleep well at ol! so i rilly need 2 rite about it..ok..so here's wut happened..i had a nitemare where i hav done hopelessly in my boards n then i hav gone soo damn fat!! i wz so pissed after that..n i started 2 hate myself like nething!then i thot abt it..i AM fat..yea that's true..but i cant even help myself..coz i really luv eating n i don't even exercise..wherez d time 2 exercise!but i do hav 2 eat less!i jus luv junk food..n i can't resist it! god help me!earlier i had d attitude of not caring abt being fat..but now i realize how imp. it iz!wel.. regarding my boards..nuthin new..i hav nitemares abt it practically evryday..so i m pretty used 2 it..n yea..therez 1 more prob..i m not growing tall also ..i m stuck up wid dis height! wat shal i do.. wat shal i do???wel. i think thati shud jus forget it coz talking abt it iz not gonno help.. so let me rite abt sum other gud things.. hey gess wat?? 2day i woke up at 8:30..jus imagine! even i cudnt believe it.. coz frm d last i had bin waking up at about 10 or 11.. as i dint had tuitions.. but oh no.. next week.. i gotta wake up at 8..:( .. now..let me make a resolution.. i wanna b happy no matter wat. n frm now onwards i'll not b worrying abt ol dis crap..i jus hope..this works!n i will try 2 lose sum of my weight but i gess.. i'll gain sum..lol.. chalo then.. i m going.. 2 study i think.. wel then buh-bye

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

y can't ppl b honest!

hey..i jus realized that i havn't posted nethin 4 a long time...well.. therez nuthin much 2 tel...these days v hav vaccations.. n i jus sleep ol d time.. i hav also started studying 4 d assessment exam.. u no wat..there r sum ppl who say that they dont study at ol n then wen d results r out they get rilly gud marks..how dumb iz that! how can a prsn do so well widout studying.. i hate such ppl..cant they simply b honest atleast once!i don no y they hide d fact that they study.. iz it a crime?? i really feel so proud wen i study.. though it's a bit boring at times.. but hey.. it's an amazing thing 2 do instead of jus wasting time..i had planned that i'll study 4 around 8-10 hours a day but...i end up studying 4 not more than 4 hours .. but i rilly need 2 study more if i hav 2 do well .. n u no wat..i m very slow in learning.. so i need loadsa time 2 study.. but i m so stupid.. despite knowing abt ol this.. still i m not studying much.. i havnt evn started my project.. i m going 2 mess ol dis up BIGTIME! god, help me!! evn now.. wen i m supposed 2 study..i m online n simply wasting my time!!.. i'll go n eat sumthin.. i m hugry..so buh bye..

P.S. congrats 2 ol those ppl who hav got their class 10th's n 12th's results.. n best of luck 2 ol those ppl who r abt 2 giv entrance exams ..